A Hope at 2012

I have seen the reports on the news that most people commit suicide is problems cannot surpass with the family, work and money. Some where work related, if a project was not delivered on the agreed they where doing office politics on the project status. Some you where almost on your regularization of your employment, unfortunately there is also office politics in the office. No wonder how will I stop this act these again of fight these through running. Running that you will keep you focus directly on current work and release out through jogging that you make you fit and healthy. Prayer before go on duty to the office that you will keep me on the go to deliver everything in a perfectly as expected by your superiors. I'll keep my pending resolutions that I haven't accomplish as of yet. Help me to deliver this 2012. There are promises that I'll really want to achieve this 2012 though I'm saying is for the past new year promises wasn't achieve in last year, First thing is to achieve those promises that I shared for the past new year's that some where fulfilled but some where not but trying to fulfilling it.They said that this 2012 is not the right for the one's who born in the year of the dog according to the fengshui forecast but it's up to me that to have the right path on your present life. Hmmm! I don't see anything wrong of seeking the right opportunity that you will grow as an Information Technology Professional. I'm seeking also on the delivery side meaning when you where  allocated in a project. They will give more on the technical skills a credit or contribution and giving the attendance as a second priority. why? We have also in different status in life that we don't see any normal professional in life. If that's the case you should also taking care of a dementia patient and checking your condition as a Hypothyroid patient knowing that my condition is a lifetime so we cannot control an expensive expenses on my lifetime medicine. Still my ultimate goal is there to accomplish, needed to patch things up everything from my project-based employment where I realize that I don't see a good future on this, It's good because it is to land a permanent skills further.

Be Strong!

I'll try to be strong for my wellness and good health to all, I know that most of the family members where have different condition at present knowing that there is another situation came to our family as always. I'm trying to regain my usual activities that usual we have so that we can indeed to focus ourselves from the usual work we have. I know that God give me a sign that you do the right thing to do although me and my younger brother have it's own grievances to two of our family members hoping to have their conscience of what they have done to me and also to my younger brother. It's been sophisticated wishing to be back on my normal form despite on my primary hypothyroidism that I'll keep on fighting for. A minute of prayer on the road, gives me back the confidence that I need for the perfect deliverance of what we do per day. Of course, every office week on that day you should need more strength on it's normal course that you need to perform very well in order to stay to on your current work longer. I know that you will be on your conscience on them that they should know that situation is different from the usual. There is a significance of placing Mama Mary to our home. Mama Mary knows our family needs her guidance to fix this current situation going on to our home that will be my motivation to do better make it to my current work at present. God will tell who shall reign and who shall fall. He is there to teach me the right path.

"I still think twice before you make an action"

There are times that you have to take an advise from a friend that you have to prepare yourself in the near future because you don't know what's gonna happen "ORAS NA".  Yeah! that's right. I have think twice that while I'm still working I have to take good care of everything that I have worked with. that the bigger savings from your current project is with you, I know, but there are times that a lot of expenses is higher due of my lifetime hyperthyroidism it's hard but I need to adjust. Prayers will give me more strength to stand up on my own that will continue my usual activities. Running will help to exercise my mind and body to continue that most of my friends will give more support despite of their busy schedules.There are Fun Run Activities that me and my brother would join then that will keep us busy as always. Joining fun run activities will gain more friends at least that you would also learned more as informative as I expected.

Hope beyond Depression

I was stuck to this issue on the Philippine Starweek issue dated on September 4, 2011 where Natasha Goulborn died in depression. Depression is a condition that knows no social class; it could strike anyone regardless of intelligence, educational attainment and financial standing. I know what she is standing too but reason but the love and support of her family on what she would be in the future that she wouldn't commit suicide for ending her life. I owe her grievances of committing suicide for this because I myself that I don't have any support on my family members although my father continuously keeps his support on what I am doing but I balance myself my time on the food and joining marathon makes me relief on the stress that I've experiencing that I have present. But I put this on a prayer that God will listen me and still the one will judge if that I am doing is right or wrong. A time of short prayer of giving yourself as a stronger person and not giving up to face my problem with my mother, though there are many times that my mother couldn't accept my reason on what I have done that assuming that she is right although that thing through shouting is wrong that she ever demoralize me as a person, already learn how to fight this problem is by prayers and finding friends that already trust and ready listen and give advise to this problem which they can give you the right advise.

"Please give me strength and patience within my family memebers?"

Is just a little mistake takes it's bigger? how come? One of your family member's doesn't want to accept every reason of each family member. How come? Is this the family that I ever dreamed off. I wish that this thing will be finished. How I finish these issue? Knowing that each of my family member that will not correct each of the attitude of one of the family members. How awful that a little mistake took bigger for her. Well I guess that more prayers will takes it course for these to resolve knowing also that the situation of my father is like that. Well, I;m hoping that real closest friends will listen and give call and advise that "Just share a prayers and give yourself quiet" taking a bigger advantage of what my mother and elder brother did to me. I'm just need to continue my journey that I'll succeed after this fall. Knowing that the prayers for guidance and more strength that will enlighten their conscience for this. I know that God will listen and he is there and see what they are doing at present. I'll be sharing my prayers for help and prosperity for me and family members to have enlighten their minds and knows how to accept their mistakes.

Everyone seems to need prayers for prosperity now more than ever. We desire to prosper not only in wealth, but in health on all levels, for if we lose sight of our spiritual direction no amount of wealth can bring us closer to God. Lord God, giver of bread, we bless You for your Heavenly kindness. There can be no famine while the bread of Heaven endures, and help us to remember that when we are forgetful of Your infinite kindness. How blessed it is to know that we shall not want forever, as You will not allow Your children to go without bread. However long the day, and hard the work, we have the rest and the bounty and the bread. Happy and grateful are we! We have You who plan our daily feast for us. As we eat of the bread of Heaven we shall continue to prosper on earth. Kind Lord, feed me until I shall want no more!

Seeking a help to have a resolution for this that knowing their mistakes and enlighten their minds that shouldn't take an advantage of their physical condition.

Dear Lord, I am calling upon you today for
your divine guidance and help. I am in crisis
and need a supporting hand to keep me on the
right and just path. My heart is troubled but I will
strive to keep it set on you, as your infinite wisdom
will show me the right way to a just and right resolution.

Thank you for hearing my prayer and for staying by my side.

"I've learned that you can still have friends whom you really trust!"

I've learned from being an IT Consultant for 3 years the value of trusted friends whom you think they can give you the right advise about personal problems that I'll be encountering to knowing that most of your common friends who also experiencing these kind of problem. Most of my friends said that you should explain on your side. Yes! I've tried but it was not enough at least I've try to explain how my real family is right now. It sounds funny but where are all real knowing that it would help. The advise that I would not take it for granted that keep me safe from what I'm doing is prayers and engaged yourself in sports. For me, this is the best advise that I am doing these days in my whole entire career and my personal life ever. I have commit mistakes in choosing whom are my real friends are, but I'm also happy that I've choose the right friends that will your friendship for keeps. There are times that I should take and shared with them the real score of your family background. Most of my friends known my family background that we where opened at time, is my high school alma mater. Knowing that is my second home that I could run with and share with that they really listen and understand to me.

"I keep myself to the Lord that will go everything on the right track"

I keep myself in my mind that I'll be resuming work on the right track. We'll I give some on progress on it. Good feedback that I have with my appointments that hoping for a projects that I'll be saving it for my future, further more that I have to double my income more. I know that still where unstable now that my father is unstable condition so we need to larger our patience more but for now that I need to double time and make it good to the projects that I'll be handling. Though in spite that these trials that I've experiencing several times already, prayers helped a lot to survive and stay stronger as I get long long way. I praying that my father  will be on his condition and memory back. The success is to have stronger faith that every struggle that all of us encounter these days. To get back on the running tracks and marathons that I'm competing or the usual things that I do everyday.

Prayers and reading bible find me solutions

I know that my situation within the family is like this, aside the members of the family is against you though you have also grievances with them. I always bring a bible before going to work or in any event for seeking a guidance from him. An accomplishing of getting back with my former teammates is get started, I'm blessed that I have resolved  within a project or task in which she is allocated, an opportunity to be reunited with your closest but trusted friends that you can express my problems and ideas to them. I know that they already listen to me, Prayers made me stronger at all times that I will make it this time that I should correct before the year 2012 starts. I've learned from the past but my weaknesses keeps coming back but now I've learned myself to fight and overcome these weaknesses on it. I treasured a help from my friends at least they have time to listen and give advise that will treasured more as I go a long, I know that time is important and knowing that finances are getting higher and just I keep myself go and improve so that I succeed on my plans that I'll be furnishing on the future, priority is my health.

Needed Guidance from to him

In times of this family that I need to step myself for my future also, I need to have a good exercise to ease my mind and relax though I'm also having my hypothyroidism due also on thyroidectomy that I had back in 2009 in UST. I promised that I would not see someone in the hospital but he we go again now that my father is now in the hospital unexpected with indefinite condition, for me that is surprise knowing that brings back the nightmare experience then in UST that I'm trying myself to move forward. For the guidance that I'm seeking to relief myself by reading a Bible enlightens that there is hope after this situation. God sees what the people is doing this days. Problems encounter but anyone can solve it with individuals patience and strong prayers to surpass this. A short prayer not just for myself also with my family for them to reflect their mistakes of what they have done to me as their daughter and to other members of the family.

O Lord, I'm hoping your guidance and strength on my condition it will enable to continue the things that I usually do everyday. In times of my difficult , you were there to protect me from the  enemies want to pull me down that I'm blessed that still my good friends were there for help and there to listen. Please enlighten my minds of my family members for their sins and bring back themselves to the Lord.

A friend that you can trust

In times of crisis that I'm experiencing that struggles in life that can be a helping to success. How life as a person, professional in real? I have read an article from Our Awesome Planet that A Next to Normal Life.

"I realized that all of us live a crazy kind of life. We turn into our own monsters at times, just to cope with the pressure of everyday living. The insanity is only made bearable by our family and friends.

When you are an employee, you long for the day when you own your own time and hit it big with your own business.

When you are an entrepreneur, you think of your more carefree employee days when you had a consistent salary and comfortable benefits.

You wish for a perfect family but instead you get a quickly one with little habits that annoy you at times.

You hate living a life of compromises." When I read these article by: Anton Diaz is what's happening in reality. They are some individuals do succeed in life but some do encounter failures. Knowing that life is to short for us, For me it happens, I'm experience recently when I had directly call-center that I'm working at the start of January. I thought that these could be it but a different story was even gets bigger. I guess you need to go back on the project-based which much getting chances to boost my moral as a person in getting back my confidence being a professional that I admit that I do experience failures which keeps me strong to go up whenever my family is trying to bullying me up. I know my real friends whom I trust. Someone knows me more, that is why we live normal but crazy life.