"Never Say Die!" attitude

An influence by the living legend of the Philippine Basket Association whom just recently retired his number 7 has made inspired the Filipinos in whatever you profession you are in just do, just keep yourself going as long as you succeed. Learn to accept failures as one of your lessons of stepping up.In every game that your component is leading that you really step up for you to win. That's how the illustrious career of Robert Jaworski Sr. that will remembered by the most Filipino fans that would lead as an example of hard-work to succeed in all aspects based on your craft or profession. I would rather do also in my own way knowing that it for me double time for me to succeed in both fields on software development and entrepreneurship also but striving my best to put myself up will be my biggest accomplishment that I'll be remembered most based on the contributions that I'm gonna being sharing without anything back to me. That could be more inspiring also that Marcel "Celo" Bautista an ultramarathoner pursuing himself to win the ultramarathon races with his old running shoes just click here that you can read more and inspire that whatever you do be your best at always. As a first-time entrepreneurs that from the start is the struggling period, if you worked double-time to make more interesting to invest or to do that would lessen your stress from your daily activities and having your financial freedom for today and tomorrow.

"Give us the strength to move for the better good"

In times on this situation. I need more strength how to surpass this for my family and also to my health. I  know that this thing has the purpose to challenge on how to balance everything like the usual hobby that I'm using to do like joining the marathon and fun run events just to help my thyroid replacement therapy will occur. Expenses(billings accounted to me,also to my father) . In stabilizing the reloading business, hope that you can utilize my time allowance to build a passive income. This Holy-week also a time to have a rest but also a reflection on how you go yourself on the right path. You know what is right and wrong on building yourself for the FUTURE. I know you don't what's inside for the future. For me, just be ready as always! what I'm saying because the focus to have and secure everything due the condition of my parents at present. I know it's difficult to accept his situation at that on his age depend the behavioral of a person that could be tested a lot of patience more than we have to take good care but when I did a research further on the disease happened to my father and thank god I already have one. I know that he is bringing   my family to the right path that is why we had a Bisita Iglesia 2012 with my youngest brother to ask his guidance an hope to stay further.

                                                                                      

"In the right place at the right time"

I know these thing has a purpose on the direction in which I really want to work it on. Hmmm! I don't feel working on as an Information Technology Consultant working in a banking industry is not enough to have a regularization on banking industry considering that I'm still seeking a flexible schedule of time to do the IT job in a banking industry rather than a fixed time as an unexpected. Seeing a work that is more flexible schedule that expected an output and know how to orient their new hires for the specific position. I know these past two months is struggling for me that I have to see the right opportunity for me that will able to support everything. IT Consulting firms well it helped a lot to give opportunity but the last work it well but in the last five months (Nov 2011-Feb 2012) doesn't work it well because I'm having hard time struggling to pursue my tech skills further in a banking industry. Yeah! not just a personal happenings happen to my family that will be a major factor that affect my deployment especially my attendance that it seems that it happen again in another banking industry just like with the previous banking industry that I had these past few months. I'll keep myself praying and making an effort to have it on the right path. Know I need my prayers to guide me that a possible arrangement for me this Monday will be okay for a deployment that open for a flexible schedule and output delivery that will less my pressure to prepare myself at the office. I have an office-mate before in an insurance company that it seems he assumes that he can do system analysis and finish the project on time that he said but on the actual agreement but my office-mate before who's know a project manager that seems unlikely he did to our team the last time. Hmmm! it's seems that he is know in the banking industry for a project that work on within 1 year that he couldn't make it why? An unlikely behavior he shown on the project and to his immediate superiors around him that it's seems he gonna get his luck this time. Hahaha!!!! nice!!!! I don't think that I should get a long with him because he is acting like a stupid boy that hmmmm! that I shouldn't get a long more.. At least keep on sending resume's if ever they will respond go for the initial stage that's the usual and if they were interested of hiring me in the position that I have deserve to work rather than the other candidates. That's how the life is. it's seem that you really to find a true office-mates that you can work longer. For 4 months already that I have searching for an opportunity, quite difficult but a challenge that will keep me to stabilize my career in Information Technology. I wish that I could meet my timeline for this. 

"I don't wanna be haunted by my past!"

It's getting complicated at all times, I know that the people you don't want to see especially the people behind the good company I really hate or I don't really trust is unexpected to see them on the running events and said they running for a cause, you do want to get stress about the past but your goal is to really move forward on my work but the pass that stress me a lot wanting me not to move on as always. We'll I'm seeking for a new beginnings in life everyone is expecting on that even I was also expecting to have a new beginning for me but it turn to an heartache ending that still I'm haunted by my past and the result my father is suffering on dementia and also my health and my work and a friend stated that she will be staying on abroad for work but when I saw her profile, I was thinking that she is still here in the Philippines and she is with the company friends that sucked me up that's awful but I don't want to go back those days it's painful and it's better to saw a trusted friend that is ready to listen to your personal problems. painful in terms that my father has the dementia and we don't know how to start, still I have to be patience in seeing a better opportunity that the doors will open. A started new opportunity business for me to work it so hard for me a good and stable income on our family. Prayers will help for me to think and scourge myself into a new beginning and new me. Still to hope a fine true friends whom I trusted very much and understand my situation that will give you new advise, ideas on how to forget the past and move forward. Health could be my priority to even grow more and better person that most of us as expected. Know that I am start learning that when I really joined and my regain my confidence through running.

A Hope at 2012

I have seen the reports on the news that most people commit suicide is problems cannot surpass with the family, work and money. Some where work related, if a project was not delivered on the agreed they where doing office politics on the project status. Some you where almost on your regularization of your employment, unfortunately there is also office politics in the office. No wonder how will I stop this act these again of fight these through running. Running that you will keep you focus directly on current work and release out through jogging that you make you fit and healthy. Prayer before go on duty to the office that you will keep me on the go to deliver everything in a perfectly as expected by your superiors. I'll keep my pending resolutions that I haven't accomplish as of yet. Help me to deliver this 2012. There are promises that I'll really want to achieve this 2012 though I'm saying is for the past new year promises wasn't achieve in last year, First thing is to achieve those promises that I shared for the past new year's that some where fulfilled but some where not but trying to fulfilling it.They said that this 2012 is not the right for the one's who born in the year of the dog according to the fengshui forecast but it's up to me that to have the right path on your present life. Hmmm! I don't see anything wrong of seeking the right opportunity that you will grow as an Information Technology Professional. I'm seeking also on the delivery side meaning when you where  allocated in a project. They will give more on the technical skills a credit or contribution and giving the attendance as a second priority. why? We have also in different status in life that we don't see any normal professional in life. If that's the case you should also taking care of a dementia patient and checking your condition as a Hypothyroid patient knowing that my condition is a lifetime so we cannot control an expensive expenses on my lifetime medicine. Still my ultimate goal is there to accomplish, needed to patch things up everything from my project-based employment where I realize that I don't see a good future on this, It's good because it is to land a permanent skills further.

Be Strong!

I'll try to be strong for my wellness and good health to all, I know that most of the family members where have different condition at present knowing that there is another situation came to our family as always. I'm trying to regain my usual activities that usual we have so that we can indeed to focus ourselves from the usual work we have. I know that God give me a sign that you do the right thing to do although me and my younger brother have it's own grievances to two of our family members hoping to have their conscience of what they have done to me and also to my younger brother. It's been sophisticated wishing to be back on my normal form despite on my primary hypothyroidism that I'll keep on fighting for. A minute of prayer on the road, gives me back the confidence that I need for the perfect deliverance of what we do per day. Of course, every office week on that day you should need more strength on it's normal course that you need to perform very well in order to stay to on your current work longer. I know that you will be on your conscience on them that they should know that situation is different from the usual. There is a significance of placing Mama Mary to our home. Mama Mary knows our family needs her guidance to fix this current situation going on to our home that will be my motivation to do better make it to my current work at present. God will tell who shall reign and who shall fall. He is there to teach me the right path.

Hope beyond Depression

I was stuck to this issue on the Philippine Starweek issue dated on September 4, 2011 where Natasha Goulborn died in depression. Depression is a condition that knows no social class; it could strike anyone regardless of intelligence, educational attainment and financial standing. I know what she is standing too but reason but the love and support of her family on what she would be in the future that she wouldn't commit suicide for ending her life. I owe her grievances of committing suicide for this because I myself that I don't have any support on my family members although my father continuously keeps his support on what I am doing but I balance myself my time on the food and joining marathon makes me relief on the stress that I've experiencing that I have present. But I put this on a prayer that God will listen me and still the one will judge if that I am doing is right or wrong. A time of short prayer of giving yourself as a stronger person and not giving up to face my problem with my mother, though there are many times that my mother couldn't accept my reason on what I have done that assuming that she is right although that thing through shouting is wrong that she ever demoralize me as a person, already learn how to fight this problem is by prayers and finding friends that already trust and ready listen and give advise to this problem which they can give you the right advise.