"I don't wanna be haunted by my past!"

It's getting complicated at all times, I know that the people you don't want to see especially the people behind the good company I really hate or I don't really trust is unexpected to see them on the running events and said they running for a cause, you do want to get stress about the past but your goal is to really move forward on my work but the pass that stress me a lot wanting me not to move on as always. We'll I'm seeking for a new beginnings in life everyone is expecting on that even I was also expecting to have a new beginning for me but it turn to an heartache ending that still I'm haunted by my past and the result my father is suffering on dementia and also my health and my work and a friend stated that she will be staying on abroad for work but when I saw her profile, I was thinking that she is still here in the Philippines and she is with the company friends that sucked me up that's awful but I don't want to go back those days it's painful and it's better to saw a trusted friend that is ready to listen to your personal problems. painful in terms that my father has the dementia and we don't know how to start, still I have to be patience in seeing a better opportunity that the doors will open. A started new opportunity business for me to work it so hard for me a good and stable income on our family. Prayers will help for me to think and scourge myself into a new beginning and new me. Still to hope a fine true friends whom I trusted very much and understand my situation that will give you new advise, ideas on how to forget the past and move forward. Health could be my priority to even grow more and better person that most of us as expected. Know that I am start learning that when I really joined and my regain my confidence through running.

"A trust to a person may boast in staying with your group"

"Even you are newbie in your group still you have to earn their trust to work a long with them is important, that's the key to stay a long with them" A key for a better working environment is keeping them trusted on you to be part of their team to boost their confidence of a newbie teammate on all the projects that are aligned to him/her. In reality, there are close-minded people when I usually talked too, but still it's a challenge for me to surpass it. Life can be more challenging if we don't try our best to solve our problems to we've encounter present. Some said that this could be difficult for me but I have to find ways to fight for it, though there are struggles but you have to keep your faith strong to him as always no matter what a feng shui said about your future, is still in your direction. Having strong faith to God asking his help for you that he will guide you all the way. Once, I have surpass that having my strong faith with onto my work at present when my father had a dementia, it all going down, most of my family members suffer and my work also. Then I watch some of the informative and religious show on the television just to keep my confidence up. I have learned that no. 1 priority will be God  even in the Facebook, they posted that Jesus is their no.1 priority. Now my lesson for me is to strengthen my faith to Jesus Christ and put him as no.1 priority in my daily work as always. Knowing your real friends are that whom you really understand to and learn how to respect you as a person, co-worker or as individual.

A Hope at 2012

I have seen the reports on the news that most people commit suicide is problems cannot surpass with the family, work and money. Some where work related, if a project was not delivered on the agreed they where doing office politics on the project status. Some you where almost on your regularization of your employment, unfortunately there is also office politics in the office. No wonder how will I stop this act these again of fight these through running. Running that you will keep you focus directly on current work and release out through jogging that you make you fit and healthy. Prayer before go on duty to the office that you will keep me on the go to deliver everything in a perfectly as expected by your superiors. I'll keep my pending resolutions that I haven't accomplish as of yet. Help me to deliver this 2012. There are promises that I'll really want to achieve this 2012 though I'm saying is for the past new year promises wasn't achieve in last year, First thing is to achieve those promises that I shared for the past new year's that some where fulfilled but some where not but trying to fulfilling it.They said that this 2012 is not the right for the one's who born in the year of the dog according to the fengshui forecast but it's up to me that to have the right path on your present life. Hmmm! I don't see anything wrong of seeking the right opportunity that you will grow as an Information Technology Professional. I'm seeking also on the delivery side meaning when you where  allocated in a project. They will give more on the technical skills a credit or contribution and giving the attendance as a second priority. why? We have also in different status in life that we don't see any normal professional in life. If that's the case you should also taking care of a dementia patient and checking your condition as a Hypothyroid patient knowing that my condition is a lifetime so we cannot control an expensive expenses on my lifetime medicine. Still my ultimate goal is there to accomplish, needed to patch things up everything from my project-based employment where I realize that I don't see a good future on this, It's good because it is to land a permanent skills further.

Be Strong!

I'll try to be strong for my wellness and good health to all, I know that most of the family members where have different condition at present knowing that there is another situation came to our family as always. I'm trying to regain my usual activities that usual we have so that we can indeed to focus ourselves from the usual work we have. I know that God give me a sign that you do the right thing to do although me and my younger brother have it's own grievances to two of our family members hoping to have their conscience of what they have done to me and also to my younger brother. It's been sophisticated wishing to be back on my normal form despite on my primary hypothyroidism that I'll keep on fighting for. A minute of prayer on the road, gives me back the confidence that I need for the perfect deliverance of what we do per day. Of course, every office week on that day you should need more strength on it's normal course that you need to perform very well in order to stay to on your current work longer. I know that you will be on your conscience on them that they should know that situation is different from the usual. There is a significance of placing Mama Mary to our home. Mama Mary knows our family needs her guidance to fix this current situation going on to our home that will be my motivation to do better make it to my current work at present. God will tell who shall reign and who shall fall. He is there to teach me the right path.

"I still think twice before you make an action"

There are times that you have to take an advise from a friend that you have to prepare yourself in the near future because you don't know what's gonna happen "ORAS NA".  Yeah! that's right. I have think twice that while I'm still working I have to take good care of everything that I have worked with. that the bigger savings from your current project is with you, I know, but there are times that a lot of expenses is higher due of my lifetime hyperthyroidism it's hard but I need to adjust. Prayers will give me more strength to stand up on my own that will continue my usual activities. Running will help to exercise my mind and body to continue that most of my friends will give more support despite of their busy schedules.There are Fun Run Activities that me and my brother would join then that will keep us busy as always. Joining fun run activities will gain more friends at least that you would also learned more as informative as I expected.

Hope beyond Depression

I was stuck to this issue on the Philippine Starweek issue dated on September 4, 2011 where Natasha Goulborn died in depression. Depression is a condition that knows no social class; it could strike anyone regardless of intelligence, educational attainment and financial standing. I know what she is standing too but reason but the love and support of her family on what she would be in the future that she wouldn't commit suicide for ending her life. I owe her grievances of committing suicide for this because I myself that I don't have any support on my family members although my father continuously keeps his support on what I am doing but I balance myself my time on the food and joining marathon makes me relief on the stress that I've experiencing that I have present. But I put this on a prayer that God will listen me and still the one will judge if that I am doing is right or wrong. A time of short prayer of giving yourself as a stronger person and not giving up to face my problem with my mother, though there are many times that my mother couldn't accept my reason on what I have done that assuming that she is right although that thing through shouting is wrong that she ever demoralize me as a person, already learn how to fight this problem is by prayers and finding friends that already trust and ready listen and give advise to this problem which they can give you the right advise.

"Please give me strength and patience within my family memebers?"

Is just a little mistake takes it's bigger? how come? One of your family member's doesn't want to accept every reason of each family member. How come? Is this the family that I ever dreamed off. I wish that this thing will be finished. How I finish these issue? Knowing that each of my family member that will not correct each of the attitude of one of the family members. How awful that a little mistake took bigger for her. Well I guess that more prayers will takes it course for these to resolve knowing also that the situation of my father is like that. Well, I;m hoping that real closest friends will listen and give call and advise that "Just share a prayers and give yourself quiet" taking a bigger advantage of what my mother and elder brother did to me. I'm just need to continue my journey that I'll succeed after this fall. Knowing that the prayers for guidance and more strength that will enlighten their conscience for this. I know that God will listen and he is there and see what they are doing at present. I'll be sharing my prayers for help and prosperity for me and family members to have enlighten their minds and knows how to accept their mistakes.

Everyone seems to need prayers for prosperity now more than ever. We desire to prosper not only in wealth, but in health on all levels, for if we lose sight of our spiritual direction no amount of wealth can bring us closer to God. Lord God, giver of bread, we bless You for your Heavenly kindness. There can be no famine while the bread of Heaven endures, and help us to remember that when we are forgetful of Your infinite kindness. How blessed it is to know that we shall not want forever, as You will not allow Your children to go without bread. However long the day, and hard the work, we have the rest and the bounty and the bread. Happy and grateful are we! We have You who plan our daily feast for us. As we eat of the bread of Heaven we shall continue to prosper on earth. Kind Lord, feed me until I shall want no more!

Seeking a help to have a resolution for this that knowing their mistakes and enlighten their minds that shouldn't take an advantage of their physical condition.

Dear Lord, I am calling upon you today for
your divine guidance and help. I am in crisis
and need a supporting hand to keep me on the
right and just path. My heart is troubled but I will
strive to keep it set on you, as your infinite wisdom
will show me the right way to a just and right resolution.

Thank you for hearing my prayer and for staying by my side.